Infected with Deception

There's something creeping up on me,

Pulling me out of the darkness I've grown accustomed to,

Forcibly tearing apart the shell that has been created,

Smashing the bits, rendering reconstruction impossible,

I'm blinded as the first crack lets in bits of sunlight,

Unable to handle the emotion that has been null for so long,

Furthermore, the emotion that thoroughly ruined what stability I had left.

The pianists play their sad tunes as the sun rises again,

Melodic music I've never heard so clear before, due to the thick encasement,

As the tune grows louder, the crack grows larger, pouring in stronger rays of light,

Again, I'm blinded, unable to comprehend not only the beauty of the tune,

But now the immaculate sky, pure white clouds gently passing by.

Soon after the pianist's song ends, another song begins,

This song stranger than the last, only soft chirping noises to be heard,

The song, barely audible, seemed to continue forever,

My only wish was to hear the song louder, and it was granted,

Another crack quickly appeared, forcing in my light,

Also granting clarity for the tune, and vision of the source,

Two simple birds, both blue, chirping away peacefully together,

Another emotion strikes me, filling my entire body with warmth,

Happiness, something that was long overdue.

The pianistic melody, the immaculate sky, and now the happy birds,

Life was taking a sharp turn, revealing hidden secrets,

The shell that encased me slowly degraded as the birds danced together,

Their happy tunes warming my body, thickening my smile,

Soon their dance ended, they turned to smile at me, and fly away,

Not only did they save me from the shell,

They helped reveal something new, and that was you.

The shell completely disappeared, and then I saw you,

Staring down on me with a confused expression,

Your hand appeared in front of me, a smile now on your face,

You were the one who opened my shell, giving my the rays of happiness,

Gladly, I took your hand, my entire body feeling another emotion long laid to rest,

Something that is indescribable, unless the person themselves has felt it,

Proper wording does not even exist to describe such emotion,

But those who have felt it, know what I'm talking about.

Throughout the first day of my shell-less life, happiness was all around,

From the various animals trotting up to us, greeting us with friendly hellos,

To the loveliest places you took me, especially the clearing,

The clearing to the most beautiful lake I'd ever seen,

And there you held my hand, ever so tightly,

Looking deep into my eyes and reciting a poem them you wrote for me,

The most beautiful poem I had ever heard, myself clinging to every word,

I captured the moment, mentally recording it, smiling ear to ear,

The poem was finished, and the tears of happiness rushed out of my eyes,

Realizing what I had longed for, was here, in front of me, holding my hand,

Something I'd dreamed of having, something I'd do anything for,

And to make it better, you were everything, and so much more,

It was like a child getting two toys out of a crane machine,

The happiness was just too overwhelming,

Dizziness followed, and I was soon blushing, returning words deep from my heart,

Those words, having been saved for so long, shaped the moment perfectly,

Only one last thing to do, seal the deal, with a lovely kiss.

Albeit the day was perfect, the emotional still spilling out of me by evening,

The truth eventually came, revealing to me you were nothing but a fake,

Every word from your mouth, every audible sound you made to me,

Every second you spent holding my hand, cooing to me that I was perfect,

It was all a lie.

Your image slowly disappeared, like I'd been holding hands with a ghost,

The warmth my body felt when you were pressed up against me vanished,

All the happiness spilled out immediately, dripping onto the ground,

Your body began disintegrating, bit by bit floating into the sky,

Nothing but pure shock and disappointed glued on my face,

With each passing second, my heart fell deeper and deeper,

It hit rock bottom with a hard thud, just as your flawless face disappeared,

My attempts to hold onto you were futile, you were simply a hallucination,

The rest of your body vanished quickly, leaving nothing but my spilled happiness,

Reaching down, it wasn't happiness, it was merely blood,

My heart had exploded, forcing puddles of blood to the ground,

I felt nothing though, because now that you were gone, emotion was null.

Again, my eyes open, only to the same darkness as always,

The previous events were simply a dream, nothing of it ever happened,

Tears streamed down my face, of both happiness, and sadness,

Despite it being a dream, feeling happiness for only a moment was sacred,

If only you would have stayed around, honestly obeying your own word,

You were perfect, everything about you, nothing but perfection,

If only five more minutes could have been spent holding your hand,

If only that kiss had lasted just a few seconds longer,

If only you hadn't tried to overdo yourself and lie to me,

If only you were real.

What happened felt like a dream, merely my mind torturing me again,

But when I went to wipe away the tears, a daily task,

The smell of blood filled my nostrils, causing my chest to wrench tightly,

I only felt faint beats of my heart, realizing it was truly weak,

Everything was far too real now, evidence was in my hands,

Maybe you weren't a dream, maybe you were real,

Even if you were nothing but deception itself.